David and I had some long chats last night. We are so busy right now. Actually, scratch that: I am so busy right now. And it was getting to him. I think I’d been trying to ignore my busy level, and the flashing warning signs that come along with the rise of busy, but last night my vision-bubble of super-calm, super-organized, has-it-all-together mom was ever so graciously burst.
It probably needed bursting.
It’s never possible to “do it all”, and the reality check on “doing it all” is realizing what’s not getting done.
In the course of conversation, David asked me WHY? Why am I doing all this? Why am I speaking, traveling, and saying yes to so much? And I woke up asking myself this morning.
If I take it back to my mission, I can say that I’m doing all this because I want to glorify God, authentically. I want to exemplify the power of choices and change to my kids. I want to show love with gratitude and creativity.
But there is more than one way to skin a cat, as the old saying goes. God can be glorified in the laundry and the dishes and a burned dinner. The power of choices and change can be exemplified by saying NO, instead of YES all the time. Love can be practiced from a blog, and doesn’t always demand that I attend a blog conference to have (incredible) meaningful conversation.
The conversation turned to balance, and I explained to him how I was using my Year Designer to set balanced goals for the year. This helped.
This morning, however, as I reviewed the conversation in my head, when that WHY question popped up again, my answer was a little bit different:
I can’t help it. Sounds like an excuse, I know, but I have all these ideas in my head every day, just desperate to get out, land on something, apply themselves, become reality. My family may give me good and great cause to slow down, and focus on balance, and a failed company may bring on second guesses and doubt, but the fact of the matter is: you can take the girl out of the dream, but you can’t take the dream out of the girl.